Tuesday, January 3, 2012

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Ok, I'm about to get a little personal here so please bare with me.


Here we are, 47 days into our blissful marriage and already, I find myself longing, yearning to be a mother.
I know some people will think I'm crazy for wanting it so soon. I know there will be those who think I'm too young or that I'm not ready. But this blog is mine and it's a place for me to express my truest feelings, desires and dreams.
And right now, I'm dreaming about a baby. Holding a baby, loving a baby and bonding with a baby-my little baby. I want to love that baby like my mother loves me. Comfort that baby, rock that baby, and soothe that little one when it needs me. I want to here sweet little coos and murmurs. I want to see ourselves in the baby that we've created. I want to learn new things from our baby and grow as a family.
I want to see the love in my husbands eyes when he feels our baby kick for the first time and when he holds our little sunshine in his arms for the very first time.
I want to do things for my baby. I want to be a young mom and I want more than one, close in age too! I'm excited to see life from a new perspective.
I know life won't be over with a baby. It will only be the beginning! We will show our little one the world. We'll travel with her and teach her things. (WOW, our unborn baby just became a girl, hey I can dream.) We'll teach our baby to love fully and to dream, BIG.
That's a lot of wants, but I promise I'm not being selfish. I know it will be a challenge. I understand that each day won't be perfect. I understand that there will be sleepless nights and bumps in the road. Isn't it worth it though?
If you're a mommy, or thinking of becoming one, when was the time right for you, how did you know? How did your significant other know when he was ready? How did you guys decide the time was right? Would you wait longer if you could go back?
I'm not saying that we're going to start trying tomorrow, but the urge is definitely there.


On another note, yesterday marked day two of "Operation Costa Rica." I have to admit, after  a 12 hour work day, working out for an hour and then eating dinner at 8:30, I was beat. It's tough to work until 7, work out and then eat. We managed to get through it though. Tonight we have spaghetti for dinner and it's a rest night. Wednesdays will be our break night, since it's another late night of work for me. We'll be back to the work out grind on Thursday! I'd also like to give a shout out to my hubby, who is doing P90X. For those of you who don't know, he tore his achilles tendon in August. He's made a miraculous recovery. He's doing a FULL work out only 5 months later! Crazy! He amazes me. I give you props honey! :)

Happy Hump Day!
-Mel

4 comments:

  1. I hear you on the longing. :) Our Katie was a honeymoon baby ... conceived a MONTH after we got married. While I don't regret her for one second in my life, I do wish we had more time together as a couple -- to grow as a couple. We didn't get a chance to really get to know each other (then again, we didn't live together either before marriage, so that needs to be taking into consideration! -- I didn't really know him!)

    Take your time on the baby! Give it a year after being married! I think you & Kory will grow even more this year than you ever dreamed == and then to top it off with a baby after some time has passed will be the cherry on top of the icing. :)

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  2. Hey Melissa,

    I love my babies SOO much! There is no better feeling then being a mommy! But I do suggest giving it at least a year to enjoy the time you guys have alone! Take advantage of this time you have alone!

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  3. That was really sweet Melissa! I read your blog to Josh, he liked it too:) Kory was telling me how good your blogs are at dinner the other night so I had to check it out for myself, definitely going to follow more often! Seriously,your a really great writer, who knows maybe you'll be a famous author someday:)

    I think that's great you want a little baby girl, your going to be an amazing mommy! I don't think you can ever plan or map it out completely, and I think the journey of pregnancy when the time is right,ready or not it'll all work out & you & Kory will make such great parents to that lucky little one;)
    xoxo D

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  4. Thanks ladies..I appreciate all of your kind words and words of wisdom. It's just an urge, I'm fighting it I promise :)

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