Wednesday, October 2, 2013

{Why Do I Keep Trying to Rush This?}

Yesterday we had our 36 week appointment. We did the usual, weighed in, checked blood pressure, and checked my urine for protein(TMI?). On top of that we did one more test and the doctor checked to see if I was dilated.

He said that my body was changing and that he could tell that we're definitely getting close, but that I wasn't dilated. After we left the appointment I felt a little bit sad. I'm not due until the end of October, but I've had it set in my mind that I want this baby to come in a certain timeframe-between now and the 20th of October.

On the drive home, it hit me...

...why am I in such a hurry?

I don't know why I keep trying to rush this.

This has easily been one of the most enjoyable periods in my life. Being pregnant is a blessing and each day I've learned something new about myself, my loved ones, my body or about my baby.

Yes, I am anxious to meet my baby boy. I just know he's going to be a doll. 

BUT these are the last moments that I will have with my husband alone. Once the baby gets here, it will never be just the two of us again. Tego will no longer be the center of our attention(lame, I know, but we love her so). This is my last birthday not being a mother(unless he does arrive early).

And what will I do when there aren't tiny feet jabbing me in the ribs? Or sweet hiccups bouncing in my belly? I never want to forget what it feels like. I will miss these moments the most.

I will never live the same way again. I won't nap whenever I want to. I won't run to the mall or get pedis on a whim. Grocery store runs and nights out with friends will never be the same. Heck, I won't get to take it "easy" at work anymore. Haha. I also won't have an excuse for gaining weight anymore, it'll be time to crack down and get this body back in shape!

What I'm saying is, I need to settle down. There's no need to rush this precious time. I going to stop counting down the days and start embracing them and living them up, while I can.

I'm going to make my husband take me on a few more dates. I'm going to stay up late and sleep in. I'm going to eat that ice cream and not feel bad about it!

Woo hoo, cheers to being patient, soaking up the last few weeks of this belly and relishing in the moment!

Melissa Loren

1 comment:

  1. So sweet! You're a precious momma to be! That baby is lucky to have you!


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