We're coming up on 4 months, which I believe is when our pediatrician will give us the go ahead on rice cereal and some fruits and veggies? This is also the point where I'll be returning to work. So I find myself at a crossroads.
Before you jump on my case, I know breast is best. That's why I've fought through and pushed myself this far.
But goodness, I've never been so excited to wear a real bra again. I forget what it's like to not have to plan your outfits around breastfeeding. Don't even get me started on my pump. I can't wait to drop kick it out my back door and I cannot wait to not wake up in the middle of the night to throbbing breasts. I'd also like to be able to workout again and not have to change nursing pads every 30 minutes.
Then there's also the flip side. Henry loves to be nursed. I have a ton of milk frozen, but Henry finds comfort in actually nursing. Sometimes it's the absolute only way to calm him or put him to bed. It's also the only way I can(sometimes) get him to nap. Dad can get him to nap with the bottle, but not this lady. He'll have to be bottle fed while I'm at work. I'm sure a lot will change when I go back to work...
I don't completely hate nursing. I love what I've been able to do for my son so far. I love it when he falls asleep on me and we cuddle for hours. I do think I'll miss it when it's over, that's part of what stops me from giving in, but sometimes I think our journey may be coming to an end.
Like I said, I have a stash, so it's not like he won't be getting breast milk at all. He just won't be nursing.
Does your body really adjust to just two feedings a day? I've heard of women nursing once in the morning and once at night. I'm always so full(probably because I nurse 67383862billion times a day), that it seems impossible for my body to adjust that drastically.
I know so many of you have nursed a full year+, but are there any of you that exclusively pumped or stopped altogether? I'd love to hear from you. To everyone, what was weaning like for you?
Again, please no attacks. This is my safe zone and ultimately I will do what is best for my babe and myself. :)
Love to all of you.